Me

• Me: I'm ugly.
• Friends: No, you're not.
• Me: I AM UGLY and that's a fact. Guys don't add me on Facebook and like my pictures, they don't ask for my number, I get 5 text a day, one from my dad, two from my mom, one from the phone company and another one from some girl in my class asking me if there's something for tomorrow. Guys don't text me saying "Good morning beautiful." or just even saying "Hi, whats up?" if I have any guy friends they're one maybe two. You guys DO get texts, boys flirt with you, you're always complaining about boys, when nobody ever calls me pretty. You guys get a compliment at least twice a day, boys play with your hair, kiss your cheek, hold you from behind, and i'm just there watching, and if any boy wants to talk to me it's because they want me to give them something, or to call me bad names. I don't have 120 likes on my profile picture, I'm scared of doing a party because I know I would't have any guy friends to invite. Is it because I don't let anyone know me? NO, it's because I don't look good. Why all the pretty girls out there are full of 'guy friends'? don't tell me because they're the best people ever because it ain't true. My teeth are not perfect, I don't like my smile, I'm insecure, my eyes have nothing special, I don't even have the perfect body, so don't tell me I'm not ugly because I am.

Had a short catch up with Amanda and Yuyang just now at Kovan. definitely missed school life now :( except for the homework and studying part lol duh

Some duck face for you?

My holiday

It has been long since i've last blogged

I've been to JB and Batam over the past few days and although the trip was a short one it still brought me tons of good memories. not to mention fun and laughter.
my aunt had made a new boyfriend recently so she and her bf brought me and my bro and grandpaps around Batam island for good food and shopping. i know i did mention that i went Batam alone but why is my bro with me? i'll explain in a while.

Anyway i've been to JB on Sunday night and it was an impromptu decision that i'll be going to Batam on Tuesday to find my aunt and grandpap there. it was for a family issue so yeah i shall not elaborate but i get to have fun meanwhile lol

So during my JB trip (it was a short one) i bought like a truck load of bags and school related stuffs like stationery and all. tbh i've bought 2 backpacks which could be used for school but idk if i should use it for school cause it's really nice and i can't bear to use it especially to contain heavy lecture notes zzz
both i bought was tribal prints but one is the furry kind :p

But i've had a very filling lunch at a curry fish head shop:

It's really nice so you guys can go and try it some day if you do go past it!!!!! It's not really spicy (i'm a chilli-eater) for me tho

I went to shop for shoes too. and christmas clothings but i was hoping that there were more skater skirts avail :( i lack of dress/skirts sigh

Okay then at night i traveled back to sg cause i have to bring some stuffs to Batam which i didn't bring to M'sia. it was the first time i took the bus to Singapore without a car lol i didn't know there was a bus service to JB from Singapore to and fro

Early in ze morning like 5am i was awake and ready to head to Batam in the first ferry whoots
but then my bro had to cockblock and came in with me by the second ferry after me z i thought i could enjoy the adventure of exploring the ferry alone on my own. my mum can't stop worrying about me being alone there so she made my bro come with me lol

But i still had fun la!

Before taking the ferry at Habourfront: i took the 10am ferry.

Sitting in the ferry: i sat at the place where it's open aired so that i can enjoy the morning breeze it's fucking shiok and the wind was so strong that i couldn't open my eyes properly!!!!!!!

 I reached Batam at slightly before 11. It was pouring suddenly and the sounds of thunder really wasn't soft at all. as compared to the ones in SG, the thunder there came with a fucking loud clap RIGHT AFTER THE LIGHTNING. not even a split second of difference where the light came and you could get ready your hands to your ears. no
i got shocked by the thunder sounds quite a few times that i thought my ears are going to burst and nerves are breaking

Had wonton mee nearby while waiting for my bro - he reached around 30 mins after me lol
then we headed to my grandma's new place lol it sucks fucking seriously z
i miss my old place the new place doesn't have my smell anymore :(

Went to the famous temple to pray :

With my aunt: by the way she's just 4 years older than me. same age as minho oppa and only 10 days younger than my oppa <3

 Meh i'm forever wearing the same clothes stfu lol

 I LOVE THIS PLACE. THE BRIDGE.
IDK THE NAME OF IT BUT THE SCENERY IS BREATHTAKING FML

We dashed across the road just to stand in the middle of it
don't think that there are no vehicles at all there are a lot it's just so happening that there isn't any while we took the photos lol

 Fav drink: tehbotol hahaha

For dinner we went to some seafood place which was built above the ocean. the scenery was.......... idk what else to say but there's fucking a lot of sand flies and all sorts of insect you name it they are there for you zz it's so irritating.

Our messy dinner table

A lot of people thought that i could understand malay while i was shopping but i really could understand just that i couldn't speak. i mean i could understand simple phrases la. too cheem / speak too fast i will catch no balls haha
but i really CAN'T understand teochew
mum says maybe i'm too used to hokkien. lol the people there should learn english i have serious language barriers there. especially after they know i'm from Singapore they obviously raised their priced higher as if i couldn't understand the amount they first stated to me when i asked for the price zz

AND GOOD NEWS: I BOUGHT 2 STUDDED FLATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i regretted not buying my flatforms
fuck sia the 2 studded flats cost me SGD$50 zz when i could get my rubi one at $19.95 but it's fucking out of stock
seriously fml la

Shall upload my loots some other time i need to dig for more photos

Thanks for reading!

Good progress award

Anyway I'm so honored to be presented to this award hehe. My results were just meh. I didn't expect myself to get an award at all! Great to get affirmation and this spurs me to work harder.
Yeah just saying.

I have so much to say but I don't know where to start.

Just had the Chorale BBQ on 6/12 Thursday. It was meant to be a farewell BBQ but I guess it didn't turn out as well as expected due to the horrendous weather (rainy season). But I had a relatively fun day out with Gina choosing her guitar and shopping at Bugis. But she wasn't feeling well thereafter cause we had to walk in the rain so it kind of ruin the whole atmosphere since we couldn't bring ourselves up to be hyper and all lol. Plus she injured her foot :-(

The BBQ food was ok. But I thought Mon and co. would turn up though. :-( sigh, there will always be another time :)

I'll be year 2 next year and I wonder who my juniors will be hmmm

MINHO DAY

“Minho may seem mature, but he’s fake! People say he’s very manly and well-mannered, but most of the times he’s acting like a child, always playing around with his hyungs. So annoying!” - Key

“Minho-hyung is really scary at times. When he’s angry no one wants to go near him because he might explode. 10 minutes later he goes back to acting cute like nothing happened! He’s weird but I like him.” - Taemin

“Minho… I don’t know him. All I know is that he’s a living existence of selfishness! Also people love to make fun of him because he acts cute. It’s cute.” - Onew

“This kid says thoughtless things all the time, like ‘I’m good looking’ or ‘I’m the best’. So childish! Ah, I love playing around with him, our friendship is like that.” -Jonghyun

Happy birthday Choi Minho. Without you, SHINee will not be SHINee at all. 5 dazzling shining stars standing together as one, it's SHINee.

It's SWC2 today. Although my physical body isn't there, my heart and soul is there for you. I'm almost out of K-Pop, being a fangirl and all. I'm just enjoying every piece of music made by idols rather than going crazy over them. I'm physically drained out.

I've caught <Reply 1997> lol to think I used to be like Sung Shi Won, fangirling over idols and being mad. I miss those times, but now, it's time to let go.

Minho was my first love, I've been through all those years with him from Replay to Amigo to Ring Ding Dong to Lucifer to Hello to Sherlock. All these are wonderful memories. I even have a 16GB worth of videos and gifs and photos of all the events SHINee had taken part in in a hard disk.

I know it's crazy and I've never been to any SWC but it's okay. Love is intangible.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR CHOI

5th Dec

Hello! It's the 5th day of December and I'm seriously packed for the rest of the holidays! I only have a few days alone at home so I really have to make use of the time to study and all :-(

It was a bad December start b/c I am having a serious rash!!!!!!!!!!!! Not because of the WWW trip, I guess, b/c I didn't have a serious rash after swimming but then I don't know why I got it. It's all over my body :-(
I shall not post the photo of my rash here but I've done so on Instagram so if you follow me, you can go and see it for yourself. (my bro finds it super gross)

I've been spending a lot recently and I'm so guilty that I just cried. Not that I have finally decided to stay at home for the rest of my holidays and just rot without spending money, I mean my mum's money, anymore, but especially after hearing the stories behind how my friends got their gadgets....................
They actually go out to work to pay for their phone plans and to get their dream phones!!!! It's like 400$ plus for a smartphone (practically your one month's salary) AND the data plan which cost around $39.90 per month. Imagine paying $40 bucks per month after spending 400$ at a go. Seriously heart pain :-(
Plus a typical teenager's allowance is around $250-$300 and food cost like $5-$7 per day excluding transport fees blahblah so we are left with like nothing at the end of the month...........
Didn't know so much money was wasted every month for a gadget which only serves as a purpose of socializing at my age :-(
I'm actually here waiting for my mum to get me iPod Touch 5th gen and not working at all and waiting for my mum to give me $50 to spend every single time I go out. I'm so fucking guilty!!!! Not that my family is super rich but I'm seriously a typical 败家女 (in short, a wastrel)!!!!!!

Anyway, I went to NP to crash Rebecca's lecture with Andrew today!
It was super fun but boring at the same time. Kind of disappointing because I really looked forward to the crashing lectures but yet up the lecture hall is like CUI. But it's definitely better than SR's although the lighting sucks. I prefer their rotational chairs in the lecture hall though. Kept swirling around hahaha

Aftermath, we headed to Bugis for Ajisen Ramen.

$12.40 each per person. Reasonable price but I regretted not going on budget :-( didn't get to buy my $22 Mary Jane shoes at Bugis cause of my school shoes + socks!

Sigh

My new school shoes are damn hot but I feel damn guilty for taking money from my mum after she worked so hard :-( SIGH

Friendship

my favourite kind of friendship is one where there’s a mutual understanding of the fact that we both have our own lives so we won’t be able to talk or hang out all the time but when we do talk or hang out it’s like picking up right where we left off 

if i had a boyfriend

tbh if i had a boyfriend i wouldnt know what to do i would probably just sit there and stare at him

Perfect

when I call someone perfect, it doesn’t mean I think they have no flaws, it doesn’t mean I think they’re the most attractive person on the planet, it doesn’t mean I think they’ve never made any mistakes. when I call someone perfect, it means I love them wholly and entirely despite anything and everything, and that, to me, is perfect.

After 8 months...

Oh hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it has been long since i've last blogged and i really miss this place.

I've just got back my results for my promotion status and i promoted. okay the actual fact is, i got "advanced". i will explain about this later on.

I have to say that I did not really put in a lot of effort in my studies this year because this year seriously past by in a flash!!!!!!!!!!!! like a fucking lighting omg I don't even have any time to really breathe in the polluted air of the city at all please. I didn't get to shop for the past few months until really recently and i realize that I've been missing out a lot in life. nevertheless, I'm really glad to have met my new friends from this year to make it a really fulfilling one. I've been through tons of ups and downs this year, doing crazy stuffs I've never done in my entire life and learning new things which I've never tried.

To name one of them, I've performed a duet like for the first time in my entire life in front of the whole school! I've never done anything this crazy before. it was sort of an impromptu decision because I've just mentioned it casually to my friends and Gina actually agreed on performing with me <3

Credits to whomever who took this picture☺ it's gorgeous.

Though it wasn't really a successful one because both of us are really really nervous and having a racing heart like F1 cars, i have to say that I've enjoyed that moment. those nights we spent in school just to practice and all, it really really gave me a lot of memories☺☺☺☺☺

I realized I've stopped blogging since March and during these 8 months I've really been through a lot with my peers. I've struggled with my studies, CCA, friendships and all. but I've pulled it through because my friends, are indeed true friends.

We celebrated birthdays together, laughed together, ate together, went for toilet breaks together, went for consults together, taught each other subjects and shared personal stories. though many told me about how JC friends can be superficial and they only make friends with you to know your progress of your studies and make sure they are catching up and not losing out etc, i'm sure my friends ain't this /kind/ of people.

And of course, some of us didn't make it through to next year, but i'm sure the following year would be a year of fun yet fulfilling one be it academically or otherwise. i hope that the next batch of freshmen would be loving ones.

Mentioning this, i'm kind of worried for the SYF next year because we really really really are shorthanded.

It was as if i'm still working the day before; i could still remember my last day of work at Robinsons. how time flies. i could still remember my orientation days. and how much i inspire to be an OGL myself.
But it's a pity i couldn't make it because my results are too sucky and the school is just being too hard on me by not giving me a leash of pity.
i didn't manage to go to SRGCE, neither did i manage to get to be an OGL.

But thanks to my friends who stayed by me through these periods. i guess the the day of promo results is the only day i've cried really really hard in college.

My overall promotion results are UEE/CE
I failed one subject and i got 33 rank points and dammit i'm 2 points away. Yes i can't believe i'm that unlucky just hang me upside down

I've been paranoid over my final /verdict/ of my promotion status until like 22/11/12 which is like 2 days ago when i found out that i passed the re-exam. i only have to sit for one frigging subject and it's like a total waste of time because i only fail 1 god damn subject. screw Econs.

Project work has been fun with my group mates. best PW group ever.
From scratch till the presentation day, we've came together to rehearse and they all have to bear with me and my nonsensical ideas and overflowing emotions. I've been really stressed when my OP is getting nearer and nearer. but we've done a really good job and i guess all the efforts have never gone to waste ☺
I'm not least worried about the results, it's the process we've been through that matters.

I've enjoyed my CCA sessions as well. though our team is not as bonded, but as a small group, i'm sure we really worked well with each other as a whole. we're going to have a farewell BBQ session with the seniors soon on the 6th!

I didn't regret knowing every single one of you this year. i really really enjoyed my life in SRJC and i'm glad to have so much fun and experience here!

Running 10km was never ever what i thought would be possible in my entire life but i did it! not once, but twice! i can't believe i could enjoy running so much.

Didn't even thought of coming to a college but i did anyhow, and i manage to scrape through despite myself not being able to handle those cheem shit. i really can't believe i'm going to be a JC2 next year nor 18........... feels like i'm only 8.....

how i wish time never past by so quickly.

Chorale camp 2012

I didn't expect the camp to be so fun like this. not literally fun though. of course it's boring at some parts but overall, it's okay. it turn out different from what i expected it would be, so i enjoyed it, of course.

So in this 2 days day-camp, we've done ice-breaking games, mingle around with different sections etc.
First day was rather dry cause it's mainly just practice and more practice and cause of the wet weather, we all were feeling cold + the low temperature in LT5 + ghost stories about it which made us feel more chills...
Ice breaking games were aimless but yet fun cause of the water balloons (lucky i didn't get the toilet water one) and water guns. had a great laugh man.
We only manage to finish the staging till scene 3... we're really running out of time though. some of us still do not know the tunes of the songs. pitching not done etc. and a choir is suppose to only produce one voice, there are tons of voices coming out from idk whose mouth zz

Anyway, veryone was just looking forward the the movie screening + pizza but it turn out that the movie was Phantom of the Opera and everyone (or was it just me) go -sianjipua-
Ended our day earlier and went home at around 7:30pm......

Had to report earlier to school for staging for scene 3...... major failure but i'm looking forward for my part :D

Went bowling aftermath.

LOOK AT OUR NAMES!!!!! I'M BUTTERCUP. and guess what i only score 36 for the 10 games.

WE ARE THE PPG!

Had a quick bite at mac and headed to do our CIP at Hong Sheng idk what.

 THIS BRYAN DAMN CUTE. I WAS EYEING AT HIM AT FIRST. but Vanessa took him. :-(

My buddy - Benjamin. actually i had 2 buddies. idk why/ hahahaha anyway another fellow went home halfway so i didn't got a chance to take pix with him naawww

 Le ken! Sean's buddy lol his song that he wrote damn epic.

LOOK AT THE INDIAN GIRL OMG

Will be back with more updates after peiyi's b'day celeb next week.
I hope nothing goes wrong~ byeeee